Birthdays are always something I looked forward to but not this year and it wasn’t because I’m a year older.
These last 6 months have been difficult to say the least. My hormones are all over the place at the minute after beginning the menopause, one minute I have a short fuse and could rip someone’s head off, the next I could burst into tears. Not only that, but if you have read some of our other blog posts, my dad, who is suffering from dementia seems to have really deteriorated recently.
At the minute, I am really struggling to cope with anxiety and sadness, my hormones aren’t helping me out and they do not make it easy to deal with everyday life, never mind any additional life pressures.
So, on the run up to my birthday I just wasn’t in the mood for any celebrations and going out and socialising was the last thing on my mind. But, following traditions from previous years I organised for a Sunday afternoon session of food and drinks with close friends and family. However, I was far from excited for my birthday but instead was getting worked up and anxious about the littlest things.
It only got worse. On the Saturday night before the planned birthday day session I received a call from my dad’s care home informing us that he had been rushed to hospital.
So with little sleep on the Saturday night I went into panic mode on Sunday morning. How could I be around people? I was tired and grumpy. I was anxious and stressed. Initially I wanted my husband to ring and cancel the birthday celebrations but my daughter, knowing me all too well, told me to see how I felt in a couple of hours and in the end I didn’t cancel.
After feeling so stressed and anxious about the occasion, not wanting to celebrate my birthday but just stay in the house, it honestly did me the world of good being surrounded by those who love and care about me.
I was conscious about the amount of alcohol I consumed because it makes my anxiety a thousand times worst the following days. But I was very sensible with the intake of alcohol for once which meant that I could truly enjoy the celebrations.
I think it is important for everyone to talk to people about what they are going through and I wanted to let all our followers know about how I have dealt with good and bad times in my life, specifically here, my birthday. I don’t think anyone can prepare you for the menopause; I literally feel like I’ve been hit by a train. Look out for future posts on how Sharkey and Duff are dealing with their journey through the menopause.
Sharkey and Duff
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